Whats been going on with me.

murankar

murankar

Staff member
Good evening (my time zone).

I have been fairly out going about some issues I have. One way for me to accept my illness is to tell people about it.

In April I stopped going to counseling because I was doing better and my Dr and I want me to handle my conditions on my own. About a month ago I fell back to a dark state again. I am currently battling back to somewhat normal.

So what I have is anxiety and depression. It's very tough to control both. When ever I get an anxious high I always have some kind of depression low. Sometimes I just have the depression low. Which sucks more because I am unaware when its going to happen. While flying does help it's not the only thing I have to do. I am lightly and I mean lightly medicated on a normal basis. I hate this because to me it's a band aide with no plane to come off the meds.

Tomorrow I will see a new Dr at the VA for my internal medicine stuff. I hope I can get her to submit my acupuncture request. This is not only a true plan it also helps me get off the meds and will help my lower back.

I have not flown since I went nose in. I have been on the sim off and on. I am working on flying around nose in only. I want to be able to control the heli while in a nose in orientation. I hope to get out tomorrow. I really need to fly.
 
Tony

Tony

Staff member
I wish I could say that I had no idea what this is like, but I know all too well what it is like. I deal with the same thing. One minute you are fine, next it almost feels like you are backed into a corner and anger is the only way out, then you hit bottom. Been there, will go there again, and I do not look forward to it. Just have to keep your chin up.
 
murankar

murankar

Staff member
It had been going .

For me it's like crashing. It's not if but when.

This has been an on going thing now for about 4 years. I have talked about it in the members area a few times but never publicly on here. I felt it was time.

Right now I am on the up and up. My girl wants to fly and she even helps me pack for the field. Anyhow it's bed time.
 
Smoggie

Smoggie

Well-Known Member
Uri,

Thanks for being brave enough to share this, and I hope the sharing does help. I've been lucky enough to not have experienced this myself but I have some idea as I've had close family members suffer from something similar. I appreciate though that it is one of those things you have to go through personally to truly 'know'.

Hope you are feeling better soon. I prescribe so me RC therapy to take your mind off it!

Steve
 
murankar

murankar

Staff member
Thank you

So I went to the Dr yesterday for A lower back issue. Trying to get back to acupuncture. If I can get that approved then I'll be back on the up and up.

Nothing like holistic medicine to fix your issues.
 
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